god bless them.. im back on a 40 hr week.. finally breathing. not that the 60 hr week was killing me, but throwing tantrums is inevitable.in fact, cribbing and grumbling tends to give one a wierd kind of satidfaction. many would agree. there is a sense of pride that comes with every woe one has. and lamenting on it just makes other individuals jealous. is this really so? does being a crib master really make one happy? ironical as it may sound, many are at it, and how. but it all surely boils down to the fact that if one pretends to be troubled, sooner or later, he starts living that lie and that "woe" actually starts to bother him. even then people take pride in living their lies and adding to their share of non-blessings...

so the evil eye's set on me after all.. since i had been making everyone jealous about my forty hour week, im now working 10 hours a day, 6 days a week.. even for lunch i'm running.. the labour laws disapprove, but who cares. Basic humanity principles say 'No' but who's listening.

I wrote to my boss, yes. Not because i'm an altruist, but just coz i have nothing to lose. he was prompt, thats true, but even more convincing than me :) stil, there's light at the end of the tunnel. he might just melt. he miht just cut it short.

that sets me thinking.. Do people do good just for the sake of doing good.. or is there a possibility of a certain individual gain at some level? some do it so that they keep their slates clean. some do it out of sheer necessity, coz they are the worse hit, coz they have no choice.

once phoebe and joey disagreed on this. joey said, "there's no such thing as a selfless deed." phoebe thought otherwise. to prove it, she made a bee sting her. joey said, "you had an aim behind that, also, after stinging u, the bee died.. " then joey was on this tv show taking calls for donations. phoebe calls up, joey takes the call, and she donates whatever she had in her account.. "see thats a selfless deed". That donation turns out to be the biggest that evening, and joey, in turn gets to be on tv! so ultimately, phoebe's "selfless deed" gets her friend to be on tv.. there u go.. and thats where this saying comes from.. "what goes around comes around" call it karma, or call it an undying desire to steer clear of the all pervasive fear of the unknown.. and the biggest killer of all.. guilt.